Day 30 something, I'm so glad I wrote so much detail about the relapses on here and how I felt cuz I've been having dirty thoughts
just a lot of small things going on and I've let them build up, I don't really know how to deal with stress except by blocking it out but then I get sideswiped! I haven't thought of drinking until this morning, how weird is that? Keep fantasizing about just getting drunk after work, that not good
I don't want to go back,I don't want to feel stressed either it gives me the creeps, I gotta get myself balanced and just let this pass cuz I know it will but only if I don't give in to it,if I give into it then my brain is gonna know that all it has to do is whine and it'll get what it thinks it needs and the cycle will be kept alive, I really hate this addiction!