900 days today
Today I wake up 900 days sober. Still sometimes not sure how I made it this far. Many a times I had many excuses to roll one up or crack one open but I didn't. Between ending a 6 year relationship last October to deviated septum surgery and arthroscopic ankle surgery last February and April which kept me out of work for quite sometime and nearly broke. We all battle the temptations but just because you don't always win doesn't mean you can't try again. People ask me "do you think you will ever drink again" "I respond I don't think so but I can't predict the future." It's almost like they think I'm missing out on something sometimes like I've never drank before or its so much fun to drink and waste money for a day of recovery the next day. I don't get mad when I get asked that question I understand I've probably asked that question to sober people before I got sober.
My Next goal is 1,000 days then 3 years! I still need to work on a lot but today I will pat myself on the back. I've started a new chapter in my life with a girl who doesn't smoke and hardly drinks maybe once a week if that. We have been together for 7 months but it seems like longer. Things are moving in the right direction finally it seems. I haven't posted on here in a while because I have been so busy.
There is always going to be events in our life's and a way we react to them and then the outcome. Something I need to work on is the reaction. Sometimes I'll dwell on things and get stuck in the mud instead of walking through. I'm improving though this past year I've done a lot of growing up I'm not there 100% but I know shortly I will be it's only a matter of time.