Originally Posted by
AnvilheadII 
drug use, theft, lying, gambling and prostitutes....
no wonder you are having such a hard time!!!! there is no easy way to get past the pain, but continuing with alanon and step work and focusing on your beautiful child will help.
he's doing what addicts do. addiction is a cunning, baffling and wickedly powerful disease and he is deep in its grip. it is actually for the best that he is NOT around the child at this time......he is incapable of being fully present and no one high on drugs should be around children.
it is important, IMHO, that you include your history of toxic relationships in your step work. of course i am not your sponsor, but i have been in and around 12 step recovery for a long time, and the more capture in the steps, the more freedom we will ultimately feel.
i am glad you are here. i know you are hurting.
Thank you so much for your reply althought my work on step one was mainly focused on addict now i know i need to include my other past relationships too, always been with men who were verbally abuse towards me, cheated on me or just used for sex and then left me so i can see a slowly that there is some pattern that i go for