I don't think I'm at a rehab point yet. You're right that, for the most part, I haven't succeeded on my own, though I know I'm capable of doing it and have proven myself able to do it. I think the key to recovery for me is going to be just finding a new obsession. After I've gained all this weight, I need to get back to the gym. Last time I went to the gym for a few months to lose weight, I barely drank at all, because that defeated the purpose. So if I can find something more healthful to obsess about, I'll be on the right track. I'm much more aware of my problem now than I ever was, so I think I have the first step in getting into the right mental area for quitting. I don't know.