Thanks for all of the kind words and advice. I think perhaps I should wait to see how things play out. As we know all too well, the truth comes out and when it comes crashing down on you so fast you would swear the walls were closing in on you. It's just so hard for me to "fake it" and act like I'm not thinking he's high.... It's an instant feeling of devastation every time you call and he sounds high, or you look over at him and his face is suddenly drooping. It's like a knife in you... Really it's the worse pain. Even worse when you've had a twinge of hope... Like seeing him in rehab and believing with all of your heart that he can overcome this and hearing all of the apologies you've been owed. I love him so much, I wish he could feel an ounce of that love towards himself. I think waiting is the best approach and observing. I don't have to solve the worlds problems tonight. I just am so scared of an overdose with his new lowered tolerance.... Scary scary