Yeah Im a hard headed b**** and had to test those waters. I used the big book to justify it too. Theres some sort of writing in there about something along the lines like: If you dont think your an alcoholic then go over to the bar and try some controlled drinking. HAHA. Its funny I ignored or couldnt remember the beaucoup of information in that book but honed in on that one line! I even said to my husband after one such relapse, hey the big book told me to! ( haha like the devil made me do it) but anywayssss....
Yeah, no, controlled drinking didnt work for me. Dont get me wrong, it worked, but for like a day and a half or so and then guess what? This hard headed alcoholic was right back at it, worse then before.
Anyway, guess you'll just have to wait and see what happens for you.
If you do find that your situation turns out like mine, I would suggest you be HONEST ( that is hard for us alcoholics, been lieing for so long!) with husband and subject yourself to the kind of accountability that at least I am in dire need of!
Best wishes to you!!