I know in my heart I'll never go back to over-drinking,
I really genuinely believed that for myself Katzen - hundreds of times.
It never worked out.
I know you've said you love being sober - but to be honest the part I quoted does sound like the preamble to drinking again.
There will always be reasons to drink - and some of them will appear very valid, even noble....
The end result tho is always back to square one...or worse.
Most of us have tried to accommodate some level of drinking in our lives.
I know, I tried and failed.
If you decide to try moderation, I wish you well but I think it would be the wrong choice for you.
If you decide to commit to recovery, I think you need to speak to your husband and discuss the possibility of your house being alcohol free or, at the very least, you need to accept there's really no reason valid enough for alcoholics to drink again..