Thank you for this, Dee. I struggle so much with this because I get so tired of letting people down who have been so kind to me. I've thought before that I would just go away for awhile and maybe come back when I've gotten some sobriety under my belt and can not be such a bother, when I've got things "together". Whatever that means.
I'm so grateful I don't have to have it all together to be a part of this group. Sometimes I feel like this is the one place where it's ok for me to be struggling and broken. I still pray for a life of sobriety. In the meantime, thank you all for loving me until I hopefully one day can learn to love myself.