Originally Posted by
Mountainmanbob 
Seeing the fortunate ones that come back after returning to the booze reminds me that there is still -- nothing good out there for me. Oh - yes, I fooled myself too many times into thinking that I could drink once again as a normal one would. I have been burned enough times and today I'm grateful to be sober once again.
I'm not sure how many chances I (we) get?
Amen - I cannot say that the thought of drinking is not there, (just one more time mentality) but the he(( and chaos that it brings is certainly not worth it. I realize that with abstinence my nightly drinking (in the past) is not possible anymore without ramifications. The shakes, the horrible anxiety, the worry, fear, the self loathing all come back 10 fold. Thank you for this thread.