Please Welcome Barklay77
I am new to the site but have been reading for the last 3 weeks (My cross-addicted ex broke up with me 3 weeks ago). I am slowly accepting the loss after a 6 year relationship and my first relationship (I was only 19 when it began). You mention how hard it is to believe that he has chosen this over your relationship. I connect with that thought on so many levels because even though you can 'understand' and make sense of his addiction knowing how addiction works, it is still so hard to wrap your head around. I am trying to deal with my truly broken heart as well. When I hit a low, I come on here and read stories from spouses and significant others that are often so similar to mine, and somehow it helps me get from one moment to the next.