Thanks elle
I have suffered from depression for years but perhaps only now realise that the more I drunk the more depressed I got it was just a cycle that was never ending I have to break the mould .I do realise that I am going to need more help and im reading up about the 12 steps . I have not talked to my doctor I do not want it on my records and work well I would be out of a job for sure . So that is not a good idea for me . Im not sure what else I can do at the moment . I will keep reading and understanding myself more . Why I do this to myself and try and avoid triggers . Who knows anyway onwards and upwards im still going . I forgot to count the days ! I think this is day 6 . Pretty good going for me ,no infact excellent ! but plenty of room for improvement . Thanks all x