Thank you for this MIRecovery - I'm on 11 days and have no plans to drink today, tomorrow or next week... But part of me still thinks that I will be able to moderate in the future because I'm not a "proper" alcoholic. I *want* to be at the point where I accept that I need to stop forever - and it would be an enormous relief to just take booze out of the equation completely - but the truth is that I have the door open. It's encouraging to read your post and see that adjusting your mindset can be a longer process. Thanks again.