Originally Posted by
Fairychild 
I want to be able to drink like a normal person... Like I used to.
I'm going to give you the bad news first but I'm going to give it to you straight.
This is the trap. The thought that you can EVER drink like you used to. Something happens with alcoholics that causes them to process alcohol differently than they did in the past. This change typically takes place slowly and there are times when the alcoholic thinks they have returned to having some control over their drinking, (and some do to a minor degree for a
very limited period of time).
The amount of control that you have over your drinking will progressively become less and less as you continue to drink. If you are like many you will stop for a long period of time and then believe you no longer have a problem. A drink will quickly show you that you have picked up at almost exactly the point where you left off.
The good news is that you never have to feel like this again.
But you've got to let it go.