Originally Posted by Martin1

Does anyone else feel like they don't actually enjoy drinking? I like being sober and feeling normal and alert, plus sleeping better. I feel mentally sharper and enjoy feeling like that. But every time I drank I always had a little urge of excitement prior to it, knowing that I was going to drink, then after the first couple the feeling isn't so great. The days after it were awful, the last two times I've drank resulted in what I can only describe as nervous breakdowns. That sounds extreme but that's what happened.