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I have so been there - feeling guilty because of the terrible things said out of frustration. With time you will learn how to have compassion for and forgive yourself! You will come to enjoy the silence and listening to your inner voice. You will become more and more grateful that you have been given another chance at life! The fog will lift, you will get through this!
I feel like my whole relationship has been a cycle of me saying the most horrible things to him out of anger and then spending all my energy trying to make it up to him and show how much I do love him. That's all I can think about right now...the guilt. He left because I wasn't as loving as I should have been. I called him last night and he said he didn't want to talk and it's over. I hate myself for being so weak when he's found strength in the break up all of the sudden.