gbriezy.....It does get better. It won't always feel like this.
It won't be "fast"...at least as fast as you want it to be. (I am guessing that you want the pain to be gone, like, 2 days ago).
There will be a time when the sun comes out, and, you laugh again without thinking about it....
The pain of separation goes away---but, the pain of staying in a relationship with an alcoholic (who doesn't want recovery) doesn't go away...it just keeps getting worse..
for this moment....go ahead and cry...and set your sights on making it through 24hrs. at a time.....
Keep reading on this site....you will find thousands (yes, thousands!) of stories just like yours!! That may give you so me comfort during this acutely painful time.....