Well if you´ve been miserable for the last 6 years because of her alcoholism it would be pretty insane if you´d fall in love instantly when she decided to stop drinking! It´s only been 5 months, how could that erase years of unhappines and I imagine a lot of disappointments? I think it´s pretty healthy that you´re feeling miserable, you probably have a lot of pent up resentments that are showing up now. I´d say just give it time, perhaps you´ll rekindle the love again, perhaps not. Just listen to yourself, not to what you think is expected of you. Life has probably revolved around your wife for a lot of years, that is what alcoholics do to relationships, now it´s time you give permission to see how you´re feeling about everything.