She's sober but I'm miserable
I'm new here. I'm hoping others can perhaps relate to my situation and offer insight or advice. I've been married for 16 years. The last 6 have been miserable with my wife's alcoholism. It took years before I had the strength to call it what it was and actually do something about it. Many failures along the way. A lot of lessons learned.
The good news is that she's been sober now for 5 months after spending 2 months in a rehab facility. She's like the woman I married again. Confident. Beautiful. Charming. A good mother.
So why am I so miserable. Our marriage is still non-existent. We are good friends but nothing more. We don't even argue anymore. We just co-exist. I know she wants more and she's giving me plenty of space. I'm thankful for that.
Al Anon tells me to take it one day at a time. Not to project or predict the future. To let things unfold naturally. I'm trying that but NOTHING is changing for me. I don't feel anything for her. I'm not in love with her and I don't see it changing. Even though she has changed, I can't seem to let it go.
I think it's over and I just don't want to face it. I just don't know what to do other than be patient and wait and see. But right now all I feel is lonely and depressed.