Hi Undies,
It's so nice to see folks thriving in the first year of recovery. When I was newly sober and struggling with doing everything sober for the first time, Dee and the other folks on this thread gave me so much hope that I wouldn't just make it, that I'd thrive.
In active addiction I thought chaos and excitement were the signs that I was really putting myself out there and leading a fulfilling life. By actively pursuing recovery, I'm calmer and more peaceful than I ever thought possible, and I've come to find deep joy in the very things that seemed so boring and gray and routine in early recovery.
Today I worked out and made lunch. Then I went to my favorite gas station to fill my tank for the week and buy a 99 cent coffee. Then I shopped for groceries and put them away in the kitchen. And because of recovery I am deeply calm and happy, and don't feel like I'm missing out!!!!!