Nalanda

Alas, no.

This is: Week one.

I lasted two months. Hurt my back. Painkillers. And then.....

Got back on and lasted four months. Spent the day with a drunk "friend", caved at the end.

Result: Depressive episode. Result. Consumed again. Result: negative circumstances, depressive episode.

I'm starting again, but this time I feel like I'm done for life. Rather than quitting for a year, rather than quitting just for now.

I'm done.

But I don't feel this is another one of those "I'm never drinking again" kind of responses. But rather..

I'm done.

And I'm deciding to quit for life and I feel a relief for saying it rather than it feeling like a "just for now" or "just for this year".