You're going to get over it and it's going to get better. The fact that you know you are doing the right thing proves that. I think you are so brave. To go through this mess and get him out of the house for your daughter. I wish someone would have done this for me and would do this for every child who is endangered by his or her own parent. You are doing a great job as a mother and if he is doing a crappy job as a father, that's sad... but the important thing is that your daughter can look up to you and see you as making the right decisions and leading a peaceful life, the rest is just icing on the cake. Like the possibility that one day you could meet someone else... who your daughter could also look up to.