Bless your heart....it is so hard, it really is. I was diagnosed as bipolar as a teen, I also was bulimic and anorexic a few years, but have never ever told a doctor. I also have substance abuse issues, am in recovery and sober but still have to work at it with the chronic pain.
It has to be terribly difficult for you in the position you're in, the legal trouble and professional trouble. I really feel for you. I will definitely be praying for you. Maybe you could find a face to face support group? Please keep posting here though!! This site has saved my a$$ more times than I can count.
(((((((((((((((Warmest Hugs))))))))))))))))))