Finally had enough
Hello everyone. I am trying something that I've wanted to do for years. I want to stop being an alcoholic and today is day zero. I've been drinking for at least 20 years. It has been a roller coaster, some years I had more control and didn't drink a lot, some years I can barely remember and not sure how I survived. I seemed to have stopped the binge, party, wake up somewhere strange drinking . But I have replaced it with a steady flow of alcohol on a nightly basis to "calm down" from a stressful , or the 6 beers while cutting the lawn, to the 12 pack while on the golf course. I've basically associated everything that I enjoy to do with alcohol. I'm tired of it, I want to stop and I feel like it will help me to be able to reach out to people that are further down the path than I am. Day zero begins for me and I want to be successful.