Hi Cassie
I'm who you are looking to meet I guess. I have suffered with anorexia for three decades. I was able to mask it with alcohol (a little unlike you perhaps) in that during the years I was drinking I actually thought I was cured of my eating disorder. Since becoming sober about a year and a half ago it came blazing out in full colour again.
I am now outpatient here at a clinic and am slowly working on my ED again while also being active in AA.
Sometimes it is exhausting. I wrote a post a little while back about what I missed about alcohol, and this was the main part - that I almost forgot this part of myself..
Now that alcohol is out of the picture I am having to deal with the same me that was there before.
It's hard, but I'm here and I'm sure many others as well.
It's hard for me sometimes to equate my ED with an addiction, but I can see how it's perceived that way.