it almost sounds like you need to live a little or soak in some expierineces. like I dunno go for a walk and stare at a butterfly or something and take it in that kinda thing.
tho the raft idea sounds kinda cool too tho
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I keep telling myself to go for a hike on the appalation trail and i'm gonna sooner or later. Idealy i'd love to just take off of work and run it for a few months but that whole wife and kids and money thing and all *Sigh*.