As frustrating as this is if you drink you'll forget about it for a few hours and that's all. In my experience the more I fear and dwell on something the more likely it will happen. If you have a good name there are people who won't believe what's going on and believe in you. We have no control over what people think of us and they have no control over whether or not you drink...only you. Have faith in yourself that you can make it through this. Congratulations on your 90 days. You got this!