Originally Posted by
AnvilheadII 
is that something you WANT to watch?
No, I don't.
I have a couple of emotional patterns I have to work out:
a) Codependency (duh)
b) Numbing my feelings (double-duh) When it comes to fight or flight, I take "flight" every time, and it has not been a good thing.
I was reading a book totally unrelated to alcoholism the other day, but I latched on to a phrase in it that said, "Leave everything behind but your courage." I don't know what that means, except I don't think I've ever been courageous. I get props for endurance, but, honestly, what some have called endurance, I have called inertia and fear.
But what is courage? What am I supposed to confront? What am I supposed to fight? If the meek inherit the earth I think I own Texas.
So, I don't necessarily want to watch this, but I also don't want to run away in fear. When my father died, I stuffed it. When my mother died, I stuffed it (I never shed a tear, but I wore a RED jacket to the funeral--literally wearing my heart on my sleeve). When my stepfather fell off the wagon and left, I stuffed it. I live inside a "happy" bubble, but that's not a real life.