Originally Posted by
kgr103110 
So... I was raised Christian. God, prayer, and good deeds have played a big role in my upbringing, so the idea of surrendering to a power greater than myself is nothing new for me.
BUT I found myself thinking today that I'm actually a little mad at God. I want to know why He made me this way. I don't think it's fair, and if I think about it too deeply I get myself pretty worked up. Was I born like this? Because if I was, then doesn't that mean God chose for me to be born like this? If that's the case, it makes me very angry.
It's something I don't understand. I don't know if I ever will. How can I surrender to something I'm angry with?
Such is life, I suppose.
Just thinking out loud... No intentions to offend anyone.
Search: Morrissey - I Have Forgiven Jesus
"I Have Forgiven Jesus"
I was a good kid
I wouldn't do you no harm
I was a nice kid
With a nice paper round
Forgive me any pain
I may have brung to you
With God's help I know
I'll always be near to you
But Jesus hurt me
When he deserted me, but
I have forgiven Jesus
For all the desire
He placed in me when there's nothing
I can do with this desire
I was a good kid
Through hail and snow
I'd go just to moon you
I carried my heart in my hand
Do you understand?
Do you understand?
But Jesus hurt me
When He deserted me, but
I have forgiven Jesus
For all of the love
He placed in me when there's no one
I can turn to with this love
Monday - humiliation
Tuesday - suffocation
Wednesday - condescension
Thursday - is pathetic
By Friday life has killed me
By Friday life has killed me
Oh pretty one
Oh pretty one
Why did you give me so much desire
When there is nowhere I can go to offload this desire?
And why did you give me so much love in a loveless world
When there is no one I can turn to
To unlock all this love?
And why did you stick me in self deprecating bones and skin?
Jesus do you hate me?
Why did you stick me in self deprecating bones and skin?
Do you hate me?
Do you hate me?
Do you hate me?
Do you hate me?
Do you hate me?