Hi itsme
I always try to put myself in other peoples shoes.
Maybe she's doing a little harm prevention and distancing herself - it can hurt when people we know or having been working with go out again.
That's not to make you feel guilty by the way, it's just a hallmark of healthy boundaries.
or...you never know... maybe she thinks a little distance is whats required to help
you help yourself?
Either way, of you commit to recovery, your progress and sincerity will be apparent and I'm sure the dynamic will change again unto something more comfortable
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