Things are going well. Managed a week in Ireland visiting family with lots of drinking being done and didn't touch a drop. Having a child free weekend away with DH and he is in the pub as I type.
I so feel like I'm standing on the side lines all the time. As life seems to revolve around people drinking and being drunk. I'm not envious or wanting to get involved. My morals disappear when I'm drunk and I've made some terrible decisions whilst drunk. So maybe I'm better off on the sidelines anyway.
I really don't want to drink again, this is definitely different to the last times I gave up. I kind of knew I would give in to it again because I liked being drunk. This time I want to be in control and not making bad life decisions and not lose days out of my life from hangovers. I want a sober life, where as before I wanted to drink but without any of the side effects of drinking, apart from the buzz.