Sigh, sunshine....you haven't listened to a word that has been said. Maybe you've "heard" but you ain't been listenin'. Fighting urges alone is simply not a plan.
I wish you hadn't gotten on that mental airplane- you're already on your journey to drinking like you laid out in your OP. I hate to see your post about it being a drinking weekend that you handled well once you return; that will just keep you in a state of mind where you convince yourself it'll be ok....which won't last.