Originally Posted by
Mikah 
My plan is to go to meetings everyday. It feels like a really difficult time right now but I know I have to have a plan in place. I know I have to get better but I can't stop thinking of how bad I screwed things up when they could've been avoided although I'd probably eventually slip into the same patterns. I just wanna feel well, sane, and happy with myself. I have no real support group as all my friends drink/use so that's where AA comes in. I think also I have to get over the shame of feeling like I need something like AA but I do.
I would highly suggest getting a sponsor. Find someone who has long term sobriety, has worked the steps, is happy with their life and who they are, and has the time for you.
Early sobriety is a rocky road and to have a guide will be a huge help because there will come a time in the not too distant future where alcohol will seam like a solution again