Welcome back Rogue, I am sure you can do this, you have already made the first step by reaching out here. I too had a relationship end because of my drinking and I too had to live with the contempt and disdain. What I am slowly discovering is that I cannot change the past, I cannot change his perception of me but what I can change is what I think of me! To focus on my sobriety, be kind to myself and move forward...... I wish you well. Elle
