Around 30 days sober, some of the fog started to lift. I began to understand how truly selfish, self centered and hurtful my drinking towards others as well as myself, daily drinking had become. Nothing is more unlovely and unkind than an alcoholic in his cups.
Sadly, we don't even recognize the bad behavior nor think we truly have a problem. Most of us simply don' t think we are in that bad of shape.
My expectations today are very limited - stay sober and take life as it comes. Many days I don't get a kiss when I get home..........But, I don't drink over it
I no longer romanticize drinking or sobriety. I do what I need to do daily to not drink and help someone else.