I'm on day four today. Every time I drink to make something better it deteriorates said situation, in fact every time I drink is increasingly worse. I've been, "was", drinking to deal with my emotions for years now and all it has done has torn my life apart, it's selfish. Because it doesn't actually fix the situation it's just a mask to the pain and a way to avoid dealing with it constructively. Ironically, had I not drank a lot of the problems I was drinking to deal with would of never even happened. If I Could go back now I would, but you can only move forward from here and the only way for me to do that is sober. I been at the bottom of being broken up with, I've lost my wife over it. I can tell you those things that seemed really important and painful at the time do actually in retrospect go away. Like completely, once you move on. Trust me it's not worth it. Stay strong! there is a light at the end of the tunnel here