I just wanted to say thank you for those well crafted responses - you have given me alot to consider. Dee those recovery plan tips are intense - I don't think even normal, non addicted people script out that level of daily planning, and would benefit by using some of those ideas. (Nutrition, hydration, physical activity, communication with partner/immediate family, journalling, etc)
Regarding the "steps". - yes, I see where working them initiates internal changes. My biggest fear is the level of trust Id need to work with a "sponsor" - surrendering that much personal information will make me vulnerable and open to "predatory" types - does that make sense?