I remember when I was 19 and I thought there was nothing more to learn and I was an adult and knew it all. How wrong I was. I think it comes with the territory.
Here I am now in my 40's still learning. One thing I will say I have observed. We have all come to this place which is a huge step that so many who are suffering never take. Whether it is those of us here in F&F or those over in the recovery areas, I have seen such maturity and intelligence here and it gives me a lot of hope.
It sounds like you have had a bumpy ride recently, and I'm sorry to hear of that -- The way you express yourself here shows great strength, maturity and intelligence and that's not something you learn overnight. I don't have a lot of answers but I can offer support and also say that it sure sounds like you are doing the right things for you and your family and that's wonderful.