I was just posting in the June thread that I have a LOT of trouble connecting that first sip with an inevitable downfall that will take me lower than ever before. Although I'm struggling, one thing that helps me when I'm tempted to romanticize drinking is to think about the WORST, most LOWDOWN moment where I am drinking something/somewhere/or in a manner that is inconceivable to me now that I have some distance in sobriety...that, and remembering that cravings are not permanent and can be observed and ridden out. Please come back and post how you beat this thing! (((hugs)))