My AV is whispering lies
I have a party to go to tonight. I'm only 9 days sober so would not normally go as there will be lots of very heavy drinking, but this party is for families whose kids have grown up together since kindergarten, kind of a send off to college for our kids (who will be there too).
I've given in and given up on sobriety with these friends before and I don't want to do that. My av is telling me how fun it would be to just relax and have fun and reminisce, how having a drink won't kill me (tonight) and will make me feel closer to my husband (who no doubt will be shaking martinis for all the guests). It's telling me I have no confidence without alcohol and nothing to say, that I'm working hard on myself and deserve to let loose.
I am planning on only making an appearance and leaving, but my av is telling me how pathetic that is and I need friends and I shouldn't isolate myself.
I have to be there in half an hour and I am very near tears. Could use some words of wisdom and support please