Welcome Prinnyruver , I relate 100 % to the progression I remember too the super lagers and ciders and gruing I. v. 1. To shudder, shiver, turn cold, from some emotion, gen. that of fear or repulsion (Sc. 1808 Jam.). Vbl.n. grewin, gruing, grooing, a shivering sensation, as of terror. Gen.Sc.) at the first long slug .
I remember having lots of friends in my teen years and early 20s but as my drinking progressed I became a lonely drinker , the fun had gone replaced by arguments and misery .
For us alcoholics there is no fun in drinking , not any more .
Keep coming here and don't be afraid to ask anything or reach out .