You are not alone!!!
I have been in the exact same situation.
You are already succeeding by coming here. When I posted about this situation the best response I got was: "nobody will know, but YOU will know and YOU are the only one that matters."
Stay close. This is a big test for your sober muscles. If you conquer it it will be easier next time.
The other great advice I got here was that thoughts are just that, thoughts. You have the power over your actions.
Remember The person that you want to be.
We are with you! We have your back! We are here 24/7 for support so use us!!!
You can do this. YOU CAN!!!