Originally Posted by
Determined1977 
Why am I so nervous to waitress tonight? Why do I feel shameful about waitressing as a second job? Mind you, I had no shame laying in bed for 6 months, using my unemployment to drink 24 hours a day? I guess I am grateful at the ability to feel...and ZERO desire to use!!!
you dont have any reason to feel shame.
but im glad youre asking why!
are you feeling some low self esteem,guilt, or insecurity? maybe youre feeling you dont measure up?
personally im very impressed to see you have the drive and motivation to work 2 jobs. i dont think i could ever do that.