As a drinker, I was very dark and cynical at the world and very much down on myself. I felt I was a waste of oxygen.
As bad as those feelings were...they didn't actually stop me getting sober - and in getting sober my worldview and my personal view got a lot better, in time.
What actually stopped me getting sober was my desire to find a way to drink, but have a different outcome.
Once I accepted that was impossible and always would be, my recovery really started
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