Originally Posted by TNTStill

Lately I have been dwelling on the past a bit. Not so much the drinking itself and my actions then (I do shake my head at those as well) as much as it is the in between sprees/drunks/binges, what have you.

I think back about how I talked and treated people and how up and down I was. I was miserable and people that didn't deserve it got a good amount of that misery brought their way. There are still times that come where I think about the relationships I ruined through my choice to let alcohol take the driver's seat.

Though I'm better now I still pray each day that I'm forgiven for my shortcomings and the effect that they had on others.

This isn't me kicking myself necessarily. Just wanted to share here since it's been a lingering thing on my mind lately.

I don't know, not unhappy but not extremely joyous either. Hard to explain.

Hope everyone is well and progressing in their recovery.

Take care.