Hello space cadets. Well moaning has it's place. Today sees me through the kindness, help and "go the extra mile for John because he is trying so hard" others around me to moan would only insult their efforts.
Despite my aversion to major scars, body image etc (today the chief burns specialist said 11 months ago they thought I was ***-ed) feedback today was my progress and improvement physically is incredible and miraculous. I had enquired to see some one for a burns review to get an extended med. certificate. I was asked to come in same day and was reviewed by 4 different burns experts. Even "nice" future surgery planned to release contractured muscles/skin so my arm moves more freely.
Same staff, plus numerous others also thought- initially thought trying to save my life and heal burns areas was nearly impossible because I was again ***-ed. PLUS that cognitively, socially, emotionally and mentally I was very f---d because of massive physical trauma, hospital given drugs (to save my life, put me in a coma, GA's, pain relief and sedatives) and of course (wait for it) alcoholism- I was at best going to only turn out to be a barely functioning vegetable. Again my progress has been far more than in their experiences they believed possible.
Once again was poked, prodded and extensively photographed. Because I have healed so well so rapidly (about half the time they expected- 11 months instead of 2 years) I have been presented in photo form this year as "before, during and after" shots at one international conference with another one coming up. I no longer have to wear a very uncomfortable, itchy, hot, at times painful full burns garment- a milestone indeed. Was told would have to wear it 24/7 for 2 years. So tight fitting it took 2 staff to put it on me the first time. After that- I did by my self- took up to 15 minutes a time, depending on how cold.
The point to all this- pissing in the wind and moaning is well and good, understandable for a little bit. Using a really sh-t event in my life, turning it around - learning from it and healing is the real lesson. I am really good at moaning too. So thanks to all for reading my stuff to date. John boy Walton signing off for now. Ic2.