Originally Posted by
BRichards 
Went 150 days sober, then went to a bachelor party in April and went crazy. Been drinking everyday. A good day is 6 drinks. Super embarrassed, I lost 30lbs not drinking and don't want to return to what I was. Going to my first AA meeting tomorrow but I don't want to do 12 Steps. I have God problems. Would love advice.
my advise is dont throw the baby out with the bathwater until you understand the program which is found in the big book, which has an excellent chapter titled,"we agnositcs."