Originally Posted by
Mizzuno 
With abstinence, the voice then turns into thinking about recovery constantly and not really being able to live a life that doesn't revolve around thinking how I will abstain. This doesn't seem balanced to me?
I think about my sobriety every day. And I am pretty sure every day has some element of recovery as a component. I'd like to think that is keeping me sober. It that a balanced life? Probably not, but it is 1000 times more balanced than drinking.
Maybe our lot as recovering alcoholics is the curse of always having it in our thoughts to one degree or another. I accept the degree I think about it. The degree that you are thinking about it drove you to drink. Perhaps there is something out of kilter with your recovery. Maybe the issue of balance is there. And if you recovery is just about abstinence, that may be it.
Wishing you strength.