It is said we have to do it for ourselves and no one else, I do not agree with that if you are a parent. I can not think of a better reason to be sober, we need to be good examples for our children and keep them safe. I truly wish you the best LotusChild you are worth it and your kids need a sober mom.
AA, LifeRing, SmartRecovery this site whatever works you can do it.