Wicket, I'm very sorry to hear about your stress and struggles. I hope that today is going better.
I am very grateful for your post--as someone who has gone back to drinking after several month patches of sobriety (and am back at it, on day two), you remind me that I need to stay vigilant.
One thing I have been thinking a lot about is creating a plan when the stress arises. If drinking is off the table forever, there have to be alternatives for dealing with those hard days and those inevitable disappointments. I'm actually off for my third walk today with the puppies
Sending you good thoughts...