Sounds like the growth of a heart, restoration of spirit...
I had a momentary wave a few months back, the word that came to mind was 'contrition'. All the things they told me when i arrived on this planet...be nice...share...sigh
Been not especially a BAD childhood, but sure as heck a long one.
Ya I'm taking guidance from AA too...how to make peace and put things right...thing is, though, while i can envision a loving ideal while sitting alone, once i get my boots on i suddenly discover there's people i still want to punish first
They have to suffer more ! Lol.
which dawg you feed